Monday, August 31, 2009

Growing up/Moving out

So Summer is almost over.
I've quit my summer job and The weather is starting to get colder ( Not that it got all that hot to begin with).
And It's been a busy couple of weeks.
This Saturday, I am moving out of my parents house, and next week, on the 8th, I start college, and my new job.
I'm almost all packed up, and this whole thing is a scary thought to me, and it makes me a little sad actually.
I'm sad that I'm not a kid anymore, I can no longer be irresponsible and lazy and get away with it.
I Now have to take care of myself, and I thought I would be more excited, and yes, in some ways, I am, but I don't want to take care of myself, and be responsible, and work a full-time job.

It's crazy how much things are different now that I'm out of highschool already, and it's only been the summer, but I already don't speak to ANY of the people that I was close with at all anymore, everyone else is getting jobs and going to college as well, and what's even crazier, some of my friends are even getting married and having babies! I could never immagine myself getting married or having a child this young, and I don't know any other people from my highschool that will be attending the same college as me. The two people that I am still in contact with, aren't even from highschool, we had went to cosmetology school together, and I'm glad I'm still contact with them, in fact they are both going to the same college as me, and were hoping to become roomates in a few months, so if that actually happens, it will be a big comfort to me.

I remember when I was about ten years old, and I was so anxious and excited for these days to come when I'd be eighteen and getting ready to move out. But now I just wish I was ten again! I feel like it all went by so fast and that everything is all over. I don't want to grow up.

Question for the comments :
What things in your future are you afraid of?
What part of your past do you wish you could have back?


Isabella said...

I am excited for the future. I know that I am going to become a bestselling author but I am afraid that sometimes I may not get things right, but I know that everyone makes mistakes.
I wish that I could have my carefree, lazy days back where parents do all the work and all you have to do is sit back and ask stupid questions.


<3, Issy